And Then Again
A tear
of sorrow,
sleepless
nights,
nocturnal
trips,
listening,
thinking, watching,
always pressured
by others
but
never succumbing,
a chill
in the night air
sending silent
shivers,
the
constant crash
of the waves,
while staring blankly
enveloped in the darkness
with thoughts of the past,
of an uncertain future,
all
clouding the mind
bringing
inner turmoil.
The mind's
inner eye,
taking
one back to a place,
to a
time long ago,
to one
much different,
one
not constantly clouded
by introspection,
by sorrow,
but
one filled with peace,
inner
harmony, balance,
one
filled with laughter,
now
watching the past
like
a movie in slow motion,
playing
in the mind,
bringing
images of a place
a place
once visited
in moments
of sorrow.
What
is it about this place?
Is
it the wilderness,
the
feeling of freedom,
of careless
abandon,
the
serenity of the desert,
allowing
a spirit to run free,
to fly
like an eagle,
soaring
to new great heights,
yet
ever watchful of all below.
Or is
it the solitude offered there,
there
amongst the sagebrush,
the
mesquite, the cholla, the sajuaro,
here
in a place unaltered by time,
a place
to provide the healing,
the
only place offering peace.
Take
me back to this place,
leave
me there, and let me think,
allow
me the time to put things
into
perspective, to put them behind me.
Allow
me to send this sorrow
off
on the winds of this canyon,
these
haunting winds filled
with
the voices of the spirits
which
will always be here,
to forget,
to become whole again.
Here
is the place to find the right path,
the
new path for a life to begin again.
The
old life cannot continue -
it must
be filed away
in the
recesses of my mind.
To sit
in this revery,
to replay
events of the past,
to go
to a place always in the mind,
to seek
relief, to seek renewal,
this
can happen any place,
because
those you hold dear
are
always with you
in your
heart, your blood, your spirit,
in your
every waking moment
whether
you realize it or not.
So to
turn to such a place is easy.
Just
call on it and it will be there,
Fly
away to the recesses of your mind
whether
driving on the freeways
or sitting
quietly at the beach.
Yes,
the spirit must run free,
whether
it be in that canyon,
at the
beach, or in the city,
not
clouded by past memories
or feelings
that once consumed it,
but
to live as one, work for others,
and
forget the self, which is not important,
knowing
the single life is how it will always be,
a destiny
now realized. and accepted.
All that
happens does for a reason,
even
if it be the hurt, the injustice,
or the
hateful actions of others,
but
shall it ever become too unbearable,
I will
walk into these ocean waves,
leaving
behind everybody and everything.
A tear
of sorrow,
an inner
reflection,
a need
to bring about change
a change
for the good
which
will erase this sorrow,
bring
closure, one much needed,
so it
will never show again.
Awake
from this dream,
this
dream of the past,
and
learn to face the future.
And
then again, this is the difficulty
to face
this uncertain future.
But
there is no other option
because
without this change,
it is
a life which is no life.
the
wolf is my messenger
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July 29, 2000, by Louve14
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